7...14...21 Three weeks a thousand things to do

On my calendar is missing 3 WEEKS EXACT to my flight ... the emotions?indescribable..things to do?1000! 
I am preparing my suitcase, not the one for America, the one to return home to my mum ... in two days my work in Riva del Garda will end and I am with my beautiful bags I'm in Verona to do everything up that to now I have returned. I have a list of to do before leaving that is really long ... in 19 days: I have to go to the dentist two times (teeth cleaning and inspection visit), do the international driving license, do spare of medicinal product, wait for the plane ticket to see if my suitcase is fine, do the suitcase, buy the latest gifts to my Host Family, greet all the various family members, and of course go to the doctor because only I can take a bronchitis in mid July!
 And it is not so easy to do all these things with the turbines infinity of emotions that ravage the soul ... yes I know maybe it seemed a bit melodramatic, but even if the outside seemed always quiet and serene, within this time it seems to me to go crazy. 
In my head keep reoccurring concepts confused, sometimes contradictory, the emotions are many, there are only three weeks and it's becoming more and more true, and sometimes frightening, other causes sadness, other times it is all a whirl of pure joy! What I know is that there is a fixed thought, clear and bright that dominates the other, that regulates my days, that gives me strength and courage, that even as far as I know that it's going to be hard especially at the beginning makes me live the days of this expectation with the heart light, that even though I know that there will be people that I will miss very much, makes me have the certainty of leaving ...This is the right thing for me, I am ready and America is ready for me, I feel at the bottom of my every cell that in this moment of my life I need to do this adventure and I am not repent never, and I want too, I am strong and relentless ... and this is what I feel in moments of crisis. 
There are the crisis nake you strengthen and make you more aware of the reasons that you push to do anything in life, and how every thing even this experience arrived to -21 days bring you doubts, difficulties, uncertainties and this time collapses (I for example, today while I done the suitcases to return home to my mother I was crying like a water fountain without that I am knowledgable about, and entry my niece and I am "aunt because you're sad? )...The thoughts are there and are many, I am very strong and I do not take almost never despair and concern, but within me there and everything is the one that does not show my character it shows my body (the first white hair came out of my 15 years old and until now I had only 3/4, are now very more!! ). 
We must not think that it is easy, but it is not impossible, at the bottom if it were easy what fun we would it be? !?